First, I would like to give Holly Anomaly credit for opening up a door I was debating on opening myself. I have passed through the many feelings and faces of grief. I say faces, because what you show on the outside is not what you are feeling on the inside. I have asked the hard questions like what if, and mostly why. I have seen the memories pass and wondered if I would have heard her hit the floor and started CPR sooner, would she still be here. You see, my mother had a massive heart attack in the room next to me and because I was on the computer with headphones in, I did not hear her fall. I have always asked what if. I know cpr and it may have been different. Would she still be her today? I can not turn back time, but I know what to look for in the future. Today, is just another day.